The Lord is Faithful

 Let me tell you some great news!!!


For several months now, my husband and I have been trying to find jobs and a place to live in Missouri (to get closer to my family, while staying close to his family also). Specifically Joplin at the time and we weren't having any luck. We would get a good feeling about a job, only to be turned down and  honestly, we were getting quite discouraged. We had to keep in mind that God has a plan for us. This can be really difficult though when your ego is hurt in the process and it feels like there's no hope. 


So, instead of claiming defeat, we started looking in Springfield. And let me tell you God is faithful and GOOD!! We went on a day trip to Springfield yesterday to apply for jobs and look at apartments. We started out the morning with Brandon applying for a job that he has lots of experience in and it pays really well, only to have a guy walk to interview for the job he was applying for. That was a little threatening. Then we went to look at 3 different places we were interested in living in. Every place was truly welcoming and understanding of our situation and extremely helpful. (So if you ever look into moving to Springfield, MO. I'd reccomend any of these places: Lakewood Village, Chesterfield Village and Dryden Place- they are all owned by the Wooten Company). None of these places made us feel pressured to rent at their place but was more interested in meeting our needs and that was a blessing. After looking at all three of these places, we decided to get some lunch to discuss our options. 


We had lunch at Dairy Queen and while we were ordering, we asked if they were hiring. They said that they had just hired a few people but one person didn't show up, so yes, they were hiring. So, I applied. (Due to my health issues, I can only work part-time). When I turned in my application, I actually got to speak to the manager, and he was very nice and we were able to tell him our situation about how we were trying to move as soon as possible but needed jobs first. He was very understanding and said he'd tell his boss. Then as we were walking out of Dairy Queen, my husband saw some guys dressed in BMW maintenance clothes, so he asked if they were hiring. The guys said probably and told him to go over to the dealership and ask. (DIVINE INTERVENTIONS!!:) We headed straight over there and Brandon went in, while I stayed in the car, waiting anxiously. Well, I wound up waiting about an hour and a half because they gave him two interviews on the spot!! They seemed very interested in him and said that when they got his background check back, they'd give him a call to let him know what they think. 


Then we headed back to Dryden Place and put a deposit down because we absolutely fell in love with the townhomes there. We set our tentative move-in date for June 15. After that, we journeyed back to Oklahoma. We decided though, that if either of us got jobs, we would move as soon as we could...


This morning I got a call from the owner of the Dairy Queen that I applied at yesterday. She was extremely nice and understanding. She told me that the manager I had spoken to the day before, said that she should hire me! How nice right?! Then she told me that she wanted me to work for and to keep her posted on when I could start. So I called Brandon and told him that I have a job in Springfield and he has decided to put in his two weeks notice tomorrow for MACU. I then called Dryden Place and asked her if we could move up our move-in date and she said "Absolutely"!! 


**Side-note: All throughout today, the BMW place has been calling Brandon's references! They wouldn't care about his references if they didn't want him to work for them right?!? :) 


So, as of today, we are moving to Springfield May 11th!!!!  Of course, we will really miss our friends and family and Church family here in Oklahoma!! But, this is something we need to do. We are excited to take this step in life together.


So, if you're our friends and family and you wanna see us before we move, let us know!! We'd love to spend some time with you before MAY 11! Or you can come help us pack everything too! ;) I would like to ask y'all to be praying for us as well. Thank you dear friends! The Lord is good and faithful! Amen.

SEX!

So last year I went to a sex forum on my campus and I took notes. While scavenging through my Bible, the notes fell out, I read them and decided they are worthy of sharing with you fine people.

Relating:

Women will use sex to get love

-Women imprint on the person

Men will use love to get sex

-Men imprint on the experience

-The experience identifies them sexually

THE FACTS:

People who are having promiscuous sex have the highest divorce rate (60-70%)

Those who wait have a 5% divorce rate

Humans are sexual beings

God is the author of sex

God has a plan for your sex life

God made sex to be good within the context of marriage

There is a difference between desire and need= lust IS MANAGEABLE

No-one has ever died from not having sex

There is an entire book in the Bible about sex

ENCOURAGEMENT:

Confidence is attractive! But also know there's room for building up!

Find your security in your of Christ

Women-

You are the crown of creation

Wisdom is referred to as woman

Only women can create children= life!

You are beautiful!

A man want to fight for you!

You have to let him fight for you!

You are worth being pursued!

"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."

*NOTE: When I have more time, I will come back and elaborate on this post further.

Baby Fever!

Tonight as I write, there is rain pattering on the window outside, candlelight flickering on the walls and my husband in a deep sleep... But I can't get comfortable enough to fall asleep, so I got on our laptop and got on almost every woman's addiction, Pinterest! I usually look at the humor section first so that I can nudge Brandon if he's still awake and share some funnies with him. Then I move on to the women's apparel section & the beauty, drooling over clothes I will never be able to afford and hair styles I will never be able to pull off. Somehow though, I always wind up spending the majority of my time in the kids section, "ooing and awwing" over babies, therefore I believe it's safe to say that I now have what most call the "baby fever". Lately, my husband and I will be watching a show or a movie and there will be baby present, even if just for a brief second, I cannot get that baby's cuteness out of my head. I have begun to daydream of what our kids will look like, how they will act, if I will be a good mom? Questions and excitement overwhelm my mind. Heck even tonight we were at wal-mart and walked by the baby clothes section and I stopped to adore how cute and tiny the outfit was.

Before Brandon and I got married, we said that we wanted to wait at least 3-5 years before having kids. But now when we talk about it, although we still want to wait awhile, our timeline for children seems to get shorter and shorter. Don't worry friends, we are not rushing this decision by no means. I just want to express my excitement for being a mother in the future and having a wonderful husband to be by side for it. We will have children when God ordains it, whether that be within the next year, five years from now or not at all, we have to trust His timing even when the "baby fever" is running rampant through my blood right now. ;)

It will mean more than the world to me when Brandon & I have kids and he sticks around and is present as a Father in every way in their lives...because I grew up with many different men whom were cast as that role but were cut. I don't blame my mom by any means, she was protecting herself and I admire her courage for that. She is a good mother and I couldn't ask for a better person to have raised me; my mom did a damn good job for all she had to deal with along the way while raising us... Watching Brandon play and interact with my siblings (who range ages 3-21) he does a magnificent job especially with the younger ones, he sure knows how to show them love and have fun with them. While we were there over Christmas break, he played Nerf gun wars with Mark (3) and Leah (5) and I was so impressed how well he did with them! I believe my husband will be an exceptional and outstanding father when we get to that point.

Oh and one thing I also enjoy is thinking about names already! I have some beautiful ideas for names and my kids better love me for it. tehe. Welp, I am getting a little groggy so I am going to look at Pinterest some more and go to sleep. I'm sure Brandon is having some nightmare with the sound of keys clicking in it anyway... So dear friends, tell me... do you have the "baby fever"? ;)

mindless boredom

Do you ever have those days where nothing can satisfy your mind? I do quite a bit and I'm not sure why. While my husband and I are sitting down watching a movie at home, the movie can't quite keep my interest... It's not because the movie is boring but it's more like my mind can't rest; so I'll start playing on my phone, checking social networks every 5 minutes even though nothing's changed. Sometimes when I'm laying in bed, I can't even begin to rest because to my mind, sleep is boring so I want to get up and go do something at 11 o' clock at night but Brandon's is asleep to work the next day and I can't drive the manual truck. If it wasn't so cold outside, I would go on a walk but then again, I'm a 20 year old and I'd like to think attractive lady, so walking around late at night wouldn't be the brightest idea. So I do "THE LIST" as Sarah Jessica Parker would call it from I Don't Know How She Does It. Then I find myself distracted in conversations, a person will be talking to me and my mind will start thinking about a million different things as if the person's dialogue can't suffice the entertainment my mind desires. Praying is another thing that gets me... I'll be in the middle of a passionate plea when my mind starts planning out different scenarios of my life. Oh and the worst time that my mind just can't seem to be at rest is during sex... now don't get me wrong, my husband is amazing, I just can't seem to focus on the intimacy 100% and it's ridiculous... I can't ever seem to just BE!

So you as my fellow blogger, readers, friends, etc. Tell me what you think please! Do you have any solutions that can help my focus? Ease my mind to allow it to rest? Have you had these problems?

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Megan Fox's Hair

I've become more and more insecure about my body lately. My stomach isn't as flat as it used to be, my curves are getting curvier and my thighs are thickening. My husband and I have started working out every monday, wednesday, and friday, but lately my immunue system has been deafeated and my sickness leaves my body weak and feeling like I don't want to do anything extra. Thus, these curves, thighs and stomach aren't getting any smaller. When I look at myself in the mirror, I don't think "danggg I look sexy" Rather, I think "ugh, what a mess". I've always been that way; never really thought much about my looks. I've never been the beautifl girl, always the pretty, eh average looking girl. In high school (not that it matters anymore) I wasn't popular, mostly the middle overlooked girl. And that's how I still feel. Maybe it's because I don't have the right clothes or I don't wear my make-up right (much less wear it at all because I was never taught how to apply it) or maybe I didn't keep my braces long enough to straighten out my teeth all the way, or I don't style my hair perfectly. These are all things I think when I look at myself in the mirror; all of my insecurites.

Yes, I know that I'm a creation of God and He made me perfectly, but why don't I feel that way? Why don't I feel beautiful? Even though I'm married and I have a man to love me no matter my condition... why do I still get insecure walking into to his workplace that's filled with beautiful women? What if one of them is just a little prettier than me? What if one of them catches his attention for just a second and his heart falters? I want to feel beautiful even when I'm sick, even when I take 2 hours to get ready, right when I wake up, after a workout or when I take my helmet off after riding the motorcycle. And just if you're wondering, when Megan Fox takes her helmet off in Transformers and her hair is completely perfect and not a strand is out of place... it's a lie!

A Refreshing Visit

This past weekend I went to see my mom and the kids. In order to do this though I had to give up seeing my husband for four days. He was unable to come with me because he couldn't stay for the length of time I desired. I have hardly been able to spend more than a week with my family since I started college three years ago and that's tough. I have been falling deeper and deeper into depression being away from them... A lot has happened with my family over the past three years. The kids have grown up so much. My little brother Mark (Stuffin) is three now, Leah is 5 and goes to school all day, she never wants to be held by me anymore like she used to. Bella is 7 and so smart, way ahead of her class, Jadyn is 9 and so naive yet precious. Nikki is in 6th grade, she is going to the same middle school I attended, boys are starting to notice her... I worry most about her because it's difficult going through a divorce- you seek to find security in something or someone. Please pray for her. Pray for all of them. Courtney is a freshman in high school and she has a good head on her! I just can't believe they are all growing up so fast.

So during the visit, I was able to spend time with all of them. Talk to them about school and things they are involved with. I wanted to approach them about the divorce and how they are dealing but it's so fresh, that I didn't want to pick at that scab. I know that when I was coping with my mom's other divorce I sure as heck didn't want to talk about. Nor did anyone really ask my about it anyway. I pray that God put someone in my sibling's lives to help them through a healthy healing process, a beautiful refinement. God is capable of making good out of this bad. It's hard to see in the times of trials but it's so true. It's devastating to me to see my mom in so much pain though, she's being made to look like the "bad guy" for initiating the divorce because she wanted out of an unhealthy marriage. She is not wrong, she did what she had to, what she believed was best. Although the kids and others may not see it that way now, hopefully they will understand in the future. Please pray for her.

Being away from my husband was a lot more difficult than I thought it would be. It was heart-wrenching actually. The further and further I drove away from Oklahoma city, the deeper I felt my heart sink into my stomach. The first night I was in Missouri, him and I skyped and I balled my eyes out; I couldn't believe I had left him for four days. Now don't get me wrong, I was extremely glad to be with my family but the fact that my other half was over 300 miles away made me sad. When I married Brandon, we united our lives together, two became one, etc. thus creating discomfort when apart from one another. The weekend went by pretty quickly and soon enough I was back in the arms of my husband, my love, my best friend. Returning home to him couldn't have been a more beautiful reuniting. I must say they were right when they said "absence makes the heart grow fonder".